HANK PHILLIPPI RYAN: Later this week we'll talk about Valentine's Day, so keep your Valentine's stuff until then. But remember, however many years ago it was for you, those days in February when you were in college or high school? Those dank freezing days-- well wait, I'm remembering Indiana and Ohio, your experiences may be different—of that progression from the holidays in December and the new year in January and then we were into.. The flats.
That's what we called it in college, I'm remembering now, the February Flats. Where there was just... nothing.
The wonderful Jacqueline Faber takes us into dark academia this February-- and isn't all academia dark in February? See what she has to say about her debut (yay!)THE DEPARTMENT, and then think about your own academic Februarys. And we'll talk on the other side.
Oh, and a copy of THE DEPARTMENT to one lucky commenter! (And look at that gorgeous noir-y cover!)
The Season of Love…and Bitter Cold
If The Department is a love story, it’s one that will break your heart.
I couldn’t pick a better month to launch my dark academic thriller than February — a month that celebrates the wild exuberance of love, while sending (literal) shivers down the spine. February is the no-man’s-land of winter, spring still impossibly out of reach, fall but a distant memory. It’s the absolutely perfect time to introduce my novel to the world.
On the surface, The Department is about a college girl, Lucia, who goes missing one afternoon. From the outside, she appears reckless, courting danger in all sorts of complicated ways. But she’s running from something, which won’t let her go. When Neil, a jaded philosophy professor at her university, learns of her disappearance, he feels drawn to it for reasons that are embedded in his own past. The more he learns about Lucia, the more obsessed he becomes, until his unsanctioned, amateur sleuthing takes a sharp turn. Suddenly, he must confront the shocking secrets of his own academic department, raising suspicion about his closest friends and colleagues.
Underneath this fast-paced whodunit, however, The Department is really a story about how we live with our losses, navigate the pain of the past, and attempt to transcend our own inner tumult.
Yet, when I sat down to write this piece, reflecting on its connection to the month of February, it occurred to me that something else is at work, too. At the heart of my book, beneath even this feverish exploration of trauma, is a fundamental longing for human connection, that ever-present search for love — propitious or ill-fated — that drives us all.
As we round the bend toward Valentine’s Day, I find myself reflecting on the way that this occasion elicits such big feelings in people. A holiday that is maligned for its kitchy Hallmark trappings and unrestrained consumerist fantasies. But also a commemoration of our deepest and most abiding human need.
There is no confusing my provocative, dark thriller for a cozy Valentine’s read. And yet, in the way that it speaks to our longings, our loneliness, and our existential hunger to be seen and understood, it feels entirely apropos.
Whether February has you retreating to the couch with a gothic horror novel, seeking comfort in friends and family, or professing your undying love, I hope you feel adored this holiday season.
Did you ever have a crush on someone in college? What were your academic Februarys like?
HANK: Ohh, yes, I had several big crushes in college! The most amusing of them was Henry V. Yes, somehow, I read my Shakespeare, and fell madly in love with the dashing Henry, who evolved into a dashing and brave and romantic hero. I used to dream about him.
I will never talk about this again, but there you have it.
How about you Reds and readers? And remember, a copy of Jacqueline’s intense THE DEPARTMENT to one lucky commenter!
(And pssst. Breaking news! Jacqueline will join us in The Back Room on March 9, with Tess Gerritsen, Pam Jenoff, and Gigi Pandian! Details coming soon!)
ABOUT THE BOOK
Philosophy professor Neil Weber can’t think of one good reason to get up in the morning. His wife has left him, his academic research has sputtered, and the prospect of tenure is more remote than ever.
Until Lucia Vanotti disappears.
A college student at the Southern university where Neil teaches, Lucia has a secret of her own—one that haunts her relationships and leads to destructive, reckless behavior. When Neil is drawn into the mystery of her disappearance, he finds himself suddenly relevant again. But at what cost? Each clue pulls him deeper into Lucia' s dark past, but also into the hidden lives of his closest friends and colleagues.
What drove Lucia to risk everything? And why does Neil, a professor who hardly knew her, care to find her? From campus classrooms to sex dens to backwoods hideaways, The Department shows the world through the eyes of Lucia and Neil as they descend into obsession, delusion, and the dangerous terrain of memory—uncovering the trauma that drives them to behave in ways even they themselves could never have predicted.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Jacqueline Faber holds a PhD in Comparative Literature from Emory University and has taught at New York University. Her work explores questions about memory, loss, language, and desire. Steeped in philosophical, psychological, and literary themes, her writing is grounded in studies of character. She lives with her family in Los Angeles. The Department is her debut novel. Connect with Jacqueline online at jacquelinefaber.com and Instagram at @jaxfaber.
Congratulations, Jacqueline, on your debut book . . . "The Department" sounds captivating and I'm looking forward to meeting Lucia and Neil . . . .
ReplyDeleteCollege crush? Guys who were good friends, certainly; a crush? Nope.
As far as I can remember, February wasn't different from any other academic month . . . lots of work and no warm weather to entice folks to sit outside . . . .
So.. easier to concentrate on studying! Xx
DeleteYeah, I guess it really does depend where you went to school. Even growing up in Los Angeles, where the weather never dips below 60, I still associate February with darkness and chill...admittedly, an atmosphere I adore!
DeleteYes, February is wonderfully weird!
DeleteI was a university student from 1966-1969 at the University of Washington, so memories are faint. Academically, we were on the Quarter system. Seeing as it was half way through the Quarter, I probably was procrastinating. As far as crushes, Absolutely Diana Rigg. Emma Peel was marvelous, intelligent, graceful, athletic, and charmingly funny. Who wouldn't want to date her?
ReplyDeleteI am looking forward to reading "The Department" Jacqueline, A philosophical that might involve memory, oh my, so very tantalizing.
a philosophical THRILLER that etc.. where is a copy editor when I need one? sorry
DeleteOh, I remember! She was amazing. First of her kind !
DeleteFlash to me googling Diana Rigg and Emma Peel. Two new crushes to add to my list! Love this!
DeleteThat last comment was from me! Haha. Not sure why it posted as anonymous. Technology!
DeleteJacqueline, congratulations on your debut novel! What a great premise for an amateur sleuth to become involved in a disappearance that he was drawn to but could have ignored. I wonder why was Neil so determined to find Lucia?
ReplyDeleteHank, I must confess that I was still pretty immature in college and had lots of crushes. But it was the '60"s and "the times, they were a changing.," Speaking of timing, I am meeting one of my college friends for lunch today.
Wow, you are having a Jungle Red week! Lunch and academia… Love that! Have a marvelous day.
DeleteLove that you're having lunch with a college friend! In the end, the college crushes fade, but some of those friendships are so enduring. Hope you have a great time today!
DeleteI had several crushes the first semester of college (well, Iowa Stare was actually on the quarter system my freshman year, but I digress) Anywho, my crushes have jokingly been referred to as “the man of the week”.
ReplyDeleteBy the time February rolled around I had found my true love and 2025 will be our 45th Valentines Day together.
Working in schools in Minnesota in February is just as you describe. I’m sure I will see former colleagues soon posting countdowns to Spring Break.
What a completely wonderful story! I love this! Happy anniversary!
DeleteWow! Plot twist! It gave me the chills. How sweet that you met your true love in college. And huge congrats on 45 years! Truly a milestone worth celebrating!
Delete41st Valentine’s Day together as married couple.
DeleteIn college, I had a crush on this young fellow who became my boyfriend for a very short time. Looking back, now I realize that he and I were not a good match for many reasons. Even if I did not always have a boyfriend on Valentine’s Day, it was still fun to bake heart shaped chocolate chip cookies and watch rom coms. We were always working hard with our college studies. The days start to get a little longer in February. And congratulations on your debut novel.
ReplyDeleteSo agree —that’s a very good thing! It is no longer dark at 4 PM, and that is fabulous.
DeleteSo true. Rom coms in February are a must! And any excuse to bake chocolate chip cookies...in the shape of hearts no less! Plus longer days are always welcome in my book. Thanks for the comment!
DeleteNice that it is now still light until 6:00 pm.
DeleteAs someone who grew up in and went to college in southern California long ago, our February was when daffodils bloomed and the rains stopped. Not dark at all. My doctoral program time in Indiana was a different story, and I'm well acquainted with departmental politics and backstabbing. Now in NE MA, Valentine's Day is also my anniversary of first meeting, post-divorce, the much better man I'm still with.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on your debut! I'll share it with my doctoral student daughter-in-law.
Also, like others, I had plenty of academic-era crushes. Like Amanda, none I'm about to go into here, LOL.
DeleteReally, backstabbing? I bet it is fascinating in retrospect, but horrible at the time. Congratulations on persevering!
DeleteI didn't even think about the daffodils in So Cal! Great point. And academic politics can be more dramatic than a soap opera. So much good fodder there!
DeleteMy first and third books were partly set on a (fictional New England) college campus, and one got slightly into that kind of politics. Maybe it's time to return to that setting!
DeleteNative Californian here, February is beautiful! The trees are all in bloom and all the flowers are blooming again. Mild temps are returning, mostly seventies here. The wildflower display in the foothills is
Deleteamazing.
Mega congrats on your debut, Jacqueline!
ReplyDeleteHere on the Canadian prairie, if we make it through January, we can skate through February (short month!) and then can ignite our hopes for spring in March -- ha! Hope springs eternal... No academic crushes I'm wiliing to report on.
Tangent: Today's essay on Brevity Blog is by Rebecca Makkai on blurbing books -- the asking for and the writing of. https://brevity.wordpress.com/2025/02/11/blurbs-what-you-need-to-know/
I am rivered to all the discussions about blurbs these days – – I know we did a big discussion about it here on Jungle Red some months ago. Eager to read that article!
Deleteriveted, of course I mean.
DeleteI'm sure many of you are more in the trenches with blurbs than I am, but as a debut author, I felt stressed to no end about getting blurbs. Regardless, it does feel exciting to have this conversation play out in such a public way while I'm navigating the earliest days of my author career. Thank you for the comment!
DeleteOh, we should talk more about this...it's such a difficult thing, and does it matter? Maybe.... xx
DeleteI can remember trudging across campus through the slushy gray snow on a gray February day and one of my professors coming along behind me and remarking, "You look like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders." Felt that way, too. Depressed, tired, and, it turns out, severely anemic. So appropriate for February in Ohio. Crushes? Of course. Congrats on your debut novel, Jacqueline! I'll save it for the summer months!
ReplyDeleteWhat a quirky little memory… It’s so touching how that encounter stayed with you!
DeleteFebruary or not, college just felt like this crazy time of extremes. In my case, living alone for the first time, the excitement of new friendships and an introduction to new, big ideas. But I also completely relate to the "weight of the world" comment. Things could feel so heavy in college, just trying to navigate this emerging identity.
DeleteYes, I that's so wise--the first time being "alone" is a big and sometimes difficult change...
DeleteFrom Celia: Congratulations Jacqueline, a debut is a huge achievement, I wish you great sales.
ReplyDeleteMy college experience was rather different as I was not actually a student. Leaving my English boarding school before I was properly baked ( no, not expelled), my academic life continued at the University of Ghana where my father was on the faculty.
I made a friend there, strictly platonic. He was in the English dept but so knowledgeable and well read. He opened my eyes to a different way of study simply by long conversations over coffees. He married late and I was a guest at his wedding. We stayed friends till his death and I am godmother to one of his children. I still miss the pleasure of sitting and just talking with him. I always learned something new.
Oh, how lovely, Celia. ANd that sounds like a novel, truly. Amor Towles meets Karen Blixen.
DeleteI love absolutely everything you wrote here. You paint such an evocative picture in so few words. I can totally imagine Ghana, a coffee shop, those deep and incredible conversations that seem to flourish in academic settings. How beautiful that you stayed close and now you are godmother to one of his children. And how wonderful to have such lovely memories of him.
DeleteThe book sounds so cool, Jacqueline! My son is currently doing his PhD in Germanic and French studies in Chicago. Last year he taught German and last week he taught his first French class. I've heard a bit about department intrigue and the quirks of professors.
ReplyDeleteAs a single person, I hated VD for a long time, but now I'm at peace. My Latino friends call it el Dia de Amor y Amistad. Love and friendship, much more inclusive.
I love that--so very wise. Y amistad! Perfect. Oh, you must be so proud of your grandson! Aww....
DeleteMy girlfriends and I all celebrate Galentine's Day. Celebrating all forms of love that sustain us. And congrats to your son. Most of my doctoral work was on German authors, so I have a warm spot in my heart for Germanic studies. But I love your word "intrigue." I think that's the perfect descriptor for the complex relationships that form in academic departments.
DeleteCongratulations on the debut book, Jacqueline!
ReplyDeleteI, too remember February in my college years as cold, gray, and depressing. But then, I was in Ohio. As to crushes, I made the awful mistake of marrying one of mine when I was just 20 years old. (Divorced at 26, though within the first year I knew I had made a terrible mistake.) When I look back on it, I think he was the first liberal thinker I had ever known, and I found his worldview intoxicating. Too bad life with him did not measure up to those big ideas!
Great that you had the courage to get out of a bad marriage and accept that it was a terrible mistake. It's not so easy; lots of people stay in spite of being miserable.
DeleteOh, sister, I was married when I was 20, too. For a year. We were kids! ANd yes, good that we realized. I wouldn't have traded that time, though. It was life changing, and in a good way. I hope it was for you, too.
DeleteI'm also part of this club! Married my college boyfriend. The marriage didn't last, but those were some important years for my own growth. The earliest seeds of this book were probably planted way back when we got divorced (while I was finishing my PhD). As I wrote, underneath the mystery, it's really a book about how we learn to live with our losses.
DeleteCongratulations, Jacqueline!
ReplyDeleteI had a couple of crushes in college. All unrequited and both guys are now good friends.
February was the second month of the second semester. I went to college in the Southern Tier of New York, so there was always a ton of snow. And I am not into winter outdoor sports. So February meant cozying up in the library or my dorm room to study (mostly).
Love that "mostly"!!
Delete"Cozying up in the library" is my love language! Snow outside, a good book, what more do you need!?
DeleteJACQUELINE: Congratulations on your debut book!
ReplyDeleteYes, I remember the never-ending grey, cold snowy days in the winter at my Ontario university.
Sure, I had a crush but I knew our relationship was not serious or long-term.
He was a couple of years older than me since he had to do 2 years of compulsory military service in Singapore before coming to study in Canada. He was calm & wise beyond his age. It was fun while it lasted.
Fun while it lasted--that's good!
DeleteEven when those relationships don't last, I feel like they provide something so essential. Some opportunity to understand ourselves better. Or as you say perfectly, maybe just some fun while it lasts!
DeleteHank, when I was in college in London, I had a mad crush on the actor who PLAYED Henry V in the Henriad, which the RSC was putting on. So now I feel we can say we had a crush on the same guy!
ReplyDeleteJacqueline, congratulations on your debut! I was an undergrad at Ithaca College, a place so famously depressing in the deep of winter that we had a unique slang term for unhappy students who decided to end it all. The combination of highly competitive academics and a student body aflame with youth and their first out-of-the-nest experience creates a tinderbox at the best of times, and February is never the best of times.
TOTALLY! That is so fantastic! See? There was def something about Henry V.
DeleteThis comment just made me laugh out loud! Who knew Henry V was such a hot item! Thank you for the comment. I love the way you described it...that tinderbox of our college years. Emotions run so high, and I can imagine that in winter in Ithaca, it's dialed up even more!
DeleteFebruary was a depressing, dark and difficult month filled with snow, ice and blizzards. It took a great deal of perseverance to get through winter. There was no time for crushes since I worked full time and went to night school for 10 years. Congratulations on your debut novel.!
ReplyDeleteYou are tough!! xxx
DeleteThat's such a good point, actually. Crushes can kind of be a luxury. If you're in that mode of perseverance--head down, do the work, keep the job, steal hours for study where you can--then you probably don't have tons of mental space to dedicate to falling in and out of love. Thank you for your comment!
DeleteThat sounds like an excellent book. I find February as a time to kick back and relax a bit before spring. In the spring I'll have planting to do in my garden.
ReplyDeleteI should have also added that February is a month I try to read a couple of authors who are new to me. I read a lot year round. Many of the books are parts of a series and I always start series with book 1. Right now I"m alternating between 2 series Dr. Ruth Galloway by Ellie Griffiths (I'm on bk 10) and DCI Warlow by Rhys Dylan (I've finished bk 5). Sometimes I'll add a new author in the mix.
ReplyDeleteLove love love Elly Griffiths! She is a treasure! And if you love her, do watch for THE WORLD'S GREATEST DETECTIVE AND HER JUST OK ASSISTANT by Liza Tully. It is going to be the book of the year--and you heard it here first!
DeleteOooh, I have read neither of these series. Which one should I start with?? (Also, book 10 is a commitment! Love that you are so invested!)
DeleteJacqueline is on the west coast, so she will be here soon! xx
ReplyDeleteHi! Here! I'm actually in Utah right now, and I had to drop my 7 year old son off at a ski lesson. This little LA child is going to learn to love snow if I have anything to do with it!
DeleteMy academic Februaries were spent at the University of Miami in Florida. It's strange though, as sunny as the days were, it was when I planned my springtime getaways that sometimes went from late February after midterms to finals. Don't ask!
ReplyDeleteOh, we are asking!!
DeleteHaha! Nothing elicits curiosity like a "Don't ask!" What was your best springtime getaway?
DeleteCongratulations and good luck, Jacqueline. February here in Bern, Switzerland, is gray, gray, gray. Today it has also rained all day. Snow would be prettier, but rain is more practical because it disappears faster! I had many crushes at college, but the one my senior year on a visiting scholar from Cambridge (England) was really painful. Now I don't even know what happened to him.
ReplyDeleteAnd it seemed so critical at the time....xxx And Bern must be gorgeous no matter the weather...
DeleteI second Hank's comment about Bern. Gray Bern is still stunning, I'm sure. And I feel you on those painful college loves. Decades can pass and still, some spot of emotional intensity remains. Thanks for your comment!
DeleteMy most memorable crush in college was the son of my dentist who would visit one of my neighbors in my dorm. He was just so cute! Sadly, he developed a substance abuse problem, dropped out of Duke and then disappeared. Luckily, I was not drawn into his spiral.
ReplyDeleteJacqueline: I love stories of college thrillers where someone disappears! I can really identify with "human need" and "to be relevant." Alicia Kullas
That human need for connection and the desire to feel relevant must live in all of us, to some degree, right? Also, glad you steered clear of that college crush in the end. Sometimes, it's enough to feel all the feelings from a safe distance.
DeleteOh, gosh, those little personal stories are just devastating...such a mystery. xx
DeleteAh yes, those Indiana Februaries. Calling time and temp to hear how many layers I needed to pull on to trudge to my 7:30am classes, trying to avoid the work of the ice polishers. Purdue had machines with a rotating brush on front that worked a treat when the snow was light and fluffy, which wasn’t often. When it was a heavy wet snow, it packed the snow down and then polished it until it was shiny and smooth. Sigh.
ReplyDeleteThat sounds truly treacherous! And reading your comment totally brought back early morning alarm clocks before class and dragging myself up in the cold.
DeleteALARM CLOCKS! Argh. I had freshman German (sorry Jacqueline :-) at 8Am, and there were classrooms in the basement of my dorm, so truly, I went to class in pajamas and a trench coat. (all women, no one cared...) But I learned about 8AM classes--no more!
DeleteThat sounds truly treacherous! And reading your comment totally brought back early morning alarm clocks before class and dragging myself up in the cold.
ReplyDeletePat D: I was at UT in Austin. I’d met my future husband on a blind date the year before. The weather in Austin is generally nice, even in February. But that month in 1969 began my months of worry as he shipped out to Vietnam.
ReplyDeleteOh wow! Yeah, I can imagine how that new worry would change the tenor of your experiences.
DeleteOh, gosh, how terrifying.. they were so brave. You both were.
DeleteI think I had lots of crushes in my undergrad days. However I ended up marrying the men I initially despised because he was too straight an arrow for my 19-21 yr old self. No regrets after 40 years of knowing him. I grew up in academia - both parents profs and now my older sister. This book definitely sounds like one I’d like to read!
ReplyDeleteSometimes, it's the straight arrows that win out! If you're deeply familiar with academia, this might be a good read for you! Would love to know your thoughts afterwards.
DeleteYes, this sounds like the perfect book for you. AND your family!
DeleteI did have a college crush and I used to catch a ride home on weekends with him. We developed a friendship, but I remember one year we actually went out on Valentines Day. He gave me candy and a kiss but we just remained friends.
ReplyDeleteAww...cute!
DeleteCatching rides home and walking that friendship line makes me think of When Harry Met Sally! Love that visual!
DeleteFor me, it was always getting through the dreary January to the lovely month of February. Three, including me, of the four kids in our family had February birthdays, and there was Valentine's. I loved the hearts and pinks and reds of Valentine's Day. As far as academically, February was the promise that another semester would be over soon. Unfortunately, these days, February isn't quite the charming, fun month it once was.
ReplyDeleteA college crush? Oh my. I will have to preface this one with the fact that I came from a small town with old-fashioned ideas and culture. I was one of the shining examples of a good girl who took part in everything and was valedictorian of my graduating class. I pretty much colored within the lines. College opened my mind up to what it was meant to be, open-minded and embracing diversity. But, I guarantee that I would have been one of the last girls thought of by my hometown to have a crush on the president of the university's gay union, and nobody would have ever pictured us kissing in the middle of campus. Oh, but he was a beautiful guy, and he was apparently bi-sexual. Well, that was great for my little heterosexual heart. However, it was really only a few days of being more like good friends, and then he flew off to tackle more important issues than a little girl that thought him an Adonis. Shortly after that, I met the man whom I married, so it all turned out fine. I had a brief little adventure and then found my true love.
That is a wonderful story! I can completely picture adorable college you, I have to say!
DeleteLove this so much!!! College is a truly unique place to encounter new ideas and allow yourself to "color outside" the lines that have defined your upbringing. Thanks so much for sharing this!
DeleteOoooh, I love a good thriller in winter. My college Februaries were CT cold - soooo cold in our drafty
ReplyDeletebrownstone apt. Brrrr. And yet, some wonderful memories with dear forever friends.
xoxoo
DeleteDrafty brownstones make me nostalgic for my NYC days. So evocative of winter.
DeleteYES, so agree--instantly cinematic!
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